Who am I?

I am a product of various forms of energy acting in equilibrium on a complex piece of matter called my body, based on a formula, manifesting itself as thought, life energies, consciousness, action, emotion, senses etc randomly and yet by finite rules of nature. I am me until this equilibrium is maintained, after which the energies and matter drain back into their source system, the infinite universal energy and matter, and comeback in other forms of matter and energy, but this will not be me anymore. not even my rebirth or reincarnation. (Just like _a_ cup of water taken out of the sea becomes _the_ cup of water until it is in the container and when pored back into the sea becomes the sea again and taking _another_ cup does not make it _the_ cup of water again.) So neither the energies nor the matter nor the space and time used by it is me. They are all part of the one. the only one that is true, real and absolute. everything else is a manifestation of it, imaginary and relative.

Some say the absolute one is sat-chit-ananda in sanskrit which means _absolute _ truth-consciousness-bliss. Since absolute thinking is beyond the capability of humans, I can only know about my self in relative terms. Relative to this maya called the world which we created and evolved. In relative terms I just my _chit_. i.e., 'I' am only my relative(to this world) consciousness which will exist as long as there will be the equilibrium of the energies and matter in me. (like an _instance_ of a program created and running in memory of a computer, which once killed cannot be that instance again, though another instance of the same program can be created. Here the computer is the universe, memory contains the worlds(collective conciousness/space&time), program a particular world and instance an individual) once this synergy is lost my consciousness merges with the absolute consciousness of the one which is null and void and I will remain only in the consciousness of others inside the same worlds as I had been in and who knew me until their consciousness remains in the respective worlds(like the data left by the instance of that program until the program is over/data purged).

This is the truth about me. Everything else is false. so never trust what others say about me. never trust what opinion u made about me. its all false. :P